Bleurgh. Woken up even after like, 8 hours kip.. with a really lazy brain.

I cannot get my head into gear whatsoever, it’s lame! I suppose last night didn’t help. Work was awesome though :) i love the banter in that place, everyone’s just so nice! Finally got out about half 10? Kinda weird seeing my ex out, despite me ending things, his sporadic heart-pouring messages & texts still make me feel guilty as hell :/ I hate how easily i get bored in relationships, and like i said.. why is it, that the one guy who you actually:

• get on with like a house on fire in terms of music, films, food, attitude & pretty much everything
• make spontaneous & random personal jokes with all the time!
• can keep the conversation flowing with virtually no effort for hours (9 hours is out record, til 4am)
• have banterous & sarcastic mutual flirting with like 24 frickin’ 7
• KNOW from previous discussions would be the hottest sex ever
• and generally just get that immediate ‘OH MY GOD, WOW’ feeling with

…is the one guy who’s got the girlfriend but still manages to act interested? Bleh, the opposite sex, it’s weird how i get reeeeeally nervous & self conscious around the one person that really gets my blood boiling (i think that’s happened 3 times in my life) despite the fact i can so easily turn them down (i don’t mean to sound the bad guy or anything, i’m just not the type of girl to lead someone on or in the case when some asshole comes onto me, i haven’t got the time for them, and just tell them where to go) and how i get on so much better with them as friends.. I give as good as i get & really feel a lot more relaxed around them compared to girls; most definitely due to the immaturity, bitchiness & outright DULLness of most (emphasis on most, not all) of the girls around my neck of the woods? Don’t get me wrong, i absolutely adore the best friends of mine that are girls, but the majority just bore me?

I mean come on, went the see “The Proposal” on Thursday night, and these 2 girls around my age.. basically shouted a conversation when Sandra Bullock gets told she’s getting deported & say’s she’s engaged to Ryan Reynolds (who is incredibly hot btw!) go: “OMG, SO LIKE, OH YEAH, SO IF SHE MARRIES HIM.. SHE WON’T GET DEPORTED THEN WILL SHE?” then the other one just lets out this confused droning “MMMYEHHH, WHATS DEPORTED?” like a lost bunny rabbit stuck in the headlights.

Hahaa, i gave out a little giggle to myself though.. was kinda funny, then just went back to oogling at Ryan Reynolds :) blatantly nearly fell off my chair whilst simultaneously choking on a piece of dried cranberry when his six pack came out! lmao ;)

Anyyyyyways,

Working tomorrow at 10 though, so no staying out for me tonight.. Just a quiet drink down The Rock & then back to Dale’s house partaaay i believe!

Then again, I might just drive again.. quick getaway & my liver needs a break after the past few weeks! Plus, with my eighteenth coming up NEXT MONTH, it’s gunna need as big a break as possible! Good lord, i sound like an alcoholic :’)

So yes, for the next 8 hours until i haul my ass up to go out, i think i’m going to laze like the best of them :) pity my book on the memoirs of the british Savant guy Daniel Tammett hasn’t come back yet! I fancy a good read! The weather is obiiiismal today, as it has been for like 2 weeks now.. Rain rain rain! Lovely summer this is in sunny South Wales i tell you LOL

Can i really be assed to do any UKCAT prep? Or do i just go on a munch raid down Asda & get some white chocolate cookies and skittles, keel and watch some Martin Scorsese movies? What can i say? My sweet tooth the size of my fist & love of violent gangster thrillers makes a lovely combination :)

My essay style blogs amuse me, once i start typing.. i’m realising, i tend to ramble.. only slightly!